"ReeL".. rOll baCk

hmmm...
yeah am back... not excited though
ok so its my 2/2 holidays... whatz that?? ... it means i finished two years of b.tech..
i still cant beleive am a 3rd year student already and just 2 more years to go and ill be a graduate......???...i thought am still a kid :P..
hehe ... anyways these two years passed away so quick..
its like .. just yesterday i stepped into the college with so much enthusiasm and determination to "acheive something" ...though had no clear idea what it is.. but i just wanted to reach a stage .. a stage where no one elz(atleast ppl from my background and environment) could ever reach..
a stage where am respected as an individual.. where i could earn as much that if i have to think of buying something i would never look back and think of money first...a stage where my eyes showed am proud of myself..many more actually..
infact these were long term goals..
short term goals anyhow were made and changed at every stage in these 2 years..
i could find a change in me and way of looking at life in first year first sem itself...i was so much into studies and nothing else...i worked hard... but realized later that "i was struggling to study and not enjoying it"..i forced myself even though i was not intrested..:(
i was infact never intrested to study since childhood.. but the difference now is that i atleast showed effort to study...
i remember i used to sit at some lonely places(for concentration) and some times cry.. cry for not being able to study ... call up deepthii after every exam and cry so much..it was so depressing when i couldnt finish even a lil part of the portion even after a day long struggle.. i kept myself away from all other entertainment..
my aim was to score above 80%(which i thought is a very goodscore)..and yes did score 83% but i realised later that 80+ is just nothing and 90+ was something "good"

2nd sem i could make some friends and did njoi a lil...or may be i was deviating from my goal...
i dint study as much i used to ...i wanted to change .. coz i heard people say "am some girl always found crying" "found like some ghost at unusual places"hehe funny rite??

i scored just 81 in 2nd sem and went down to 79 in my 2nd year,1st sem...now its not "may be"... i WAS deviating from my goal..it was just friends..there were many other issues(let it be..no intention of writing all that now)
but sometimes i find this change good for me... i mean ..now i like the way i study.. atleast i njoi it sometimes and not "struggle" ..
i dont study daily..may be no one does.. i study just before exams...i wonder how do i concentrate so well b4 exams... i just can study all my own without the pressure of exams... hehe
i just take those subjects serious wich i think r important for my career
now i finished my 2/2 exams also..and yeah i did well.. i did better ..

I HAVE CHANGED a LOT and will continue changing... i like this change ..the hostel,the college,ppl around changed me..
i dont hangaround with my friends.. .but i am friendly.. i have learnt how to deal with ppl...i have started being independant in my sense..
may be there are many things am still dumb at but i know "i can" do it.. i like it


am expecting my results soon...and i wish i get 9 point this time.. this sem i was just experimenting ..i gave importance to impression and "maska to lecturers" rather than hardwork..coz that is what works out in "MY COLLEGE"...lets c...

hmm....now i better give an end to this post... planned to write something and ended up with this discussion... may be i was just flowing away with my thoughts...
sooo...actuall current stuff in next post..got bored thinking of thses 2 years...

MY LIFE....!!

I hate my hostel2 d core.... for the food ..for the ppl there....warden....EVERYTHING.....i dont wish to live there even for a moment

I hate my college life... nothingz great about it.... if this is how a engineering life z supposed to be.... den I HATE IT

all that z good about my college is its infrastructure... thatz it... d ppl here.... i dont want them in my life....
i hate the way my life is right now....
i've got messed up into a world that i myself happily entered into... I DONT WANT THIS>>>

BUT whoz here to listen to me... CaN SOMEONE LISTEN >>>> i want to get the hell outta here....
naahhh ... no reply ... i know.... no one would ever give a damn to it... i dont mind... i dont blame u .... its just my frustration that am trying to throw it out here...

i cant show it anywhere rite..... am supposed to smile all thru and stay happy.... and yes i am ... AM HAPPY....
huh...!! feeling a lil better now....

missing u loooootttttttttt supriya

..... i want to get back to my childhood again just to be wit u.... :(



lifez all messed up now to explain it to u in simple words.... so forget it.... CLOSE THIS BLOG AND MIND UR OWN BUISNESS >>>>..

PHeeeeeWWWW......!!

Now am i supposed to laugh at myself or crib for being such an idiot....

DO u believe this.... i've opened this blog after 2 and a 1/2 years 4rm now....

wait..lemme tell u what went wrong...

after my last post....i dint open my blog for many months... and then forgot my password...
i hardly knew much about all this ...all i could do was sign in,admire my blog,post and then sign out when am bored looking at it .... so dint even know how to recover my password.....
hmm.... so now....

ha ha ha... so much to tell u ...

i've finished my intermediate...with 87% score... not excited about it anymore...

then about eamcet.... got 54720 rank... hehe :P many digits i know.... not justeamcet... wrote many more exams...VIT...IIT...AIEEE...BITSAT..name it and i wud say yes... but yeah i wasnt successfull in any of them....
althought i cud make it up to get into NIT for architechture(dad was very happy with it) ... got an option to take up animanion as my career..buti dint opt for for any of them..may b i was meant to be somewhere elz...
with this rank i obviously cant get into a good engineerng colege,.... but i didnt want to lose .... i wanted to join a reputed college at any cost... by "at any cost" i dont mean i was ready to pay any amout for it...i was stubborn... i wanted a free seat...the normal one...
struggled a lot for it... net ..newspapers...adds... what not... my eyes went around everywhere...
tried out for SASTRA ... dreamt a lot for it... tried it with agents (basant) ... but even he could make it..
then again with many more colleges.... BUT as i already said... i wasnt meant to b there.... or may be those were not meant to be mine... hehe... :P

chalo... atlast...luckily ... i got into GITAMs.... wondering how.... GITAM was then newly recognized as a UNIVERSITY .... and they took up admission based on intermediate....
soooooooo/...... am a GITAM student now.... a UNIVERSITY student.... DEEMED ofcourse....
good to losten rite??
yeah... but kind of struggling here.... HOSTEL ... FOOD.... ACADAMICS.... handling it all myself... atlast i,ve started being independant...
but then ... missing family a lot....
hmmmmmmm.... forgot to tell u ..... supriya left to california mean while.....
missing her a loooooooooootttt.... :(
new set of friends here... new kinda life(sucks) ....
i only get to meet my family for holidays....
now am in 2nd year... just finished my 1st semester exams.... did horrible work....
1st year was good id a 8.2 cgpa...
now will b leaving home tommorw for a 20 days vacation... coolna...
will eat mom's food...wow.... njoi wid my sister deepthi... at late nites... roaming on bike... eating every roadside junk... yipeeee.... will meet my frends shraranya and srujana... suith might b there for his vacation too... will njoi wid him

hahaha

bye for now....
hope i dont forget this password for the next post...:)

Vacation creations

Lampshade

Floor Lamps

My Songs

Here're are the songs that I had recorded during my summer vacation

1. This is Zara-Zara from the movie Rehna Hi Tere Dil Mein.


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2. Telugu song Eee Reyi.


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3. Supriya's surprise to gugu


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I hope you all like my singing :)

Success ...........out of THE HELL

Yipeeeee......wohoooooo..................
few hours before i got my results for the juniour intermediate public examinations......And guess what i have passed with distinction......isn't it great???......WOW i love this day.....all my hard work has shown up good results.....I have secured 86% which is all that i wished for....My friend sharanya,a Bipc student with whom i studied during exams has also passed with distinction securing 92%......what else will i wish for.....
My family members are so happy with my results.
im on the top of the peak......on the ninth cloud....:d...
now i gotto continue this effort even in the next year and secure a good rank even in my eamcet:d....
tommorow my college reopens.....
thats it for now..
HOPE TO SEE U WITH ANOTHER HAPPY BLOG

My Vacation.........

Itz now exactly a month since i finished my juniour intermediate public examinations.I remember how i came out of the examination hall and shouted aloud "yieee....THE END OF THE JOURNEY IN HELL".As i worked hard this time, it didnt matter much even if i didnt do few of those exams well.Now i had a month to enjoy and i decided that going to banglore on a vacation to stay with my sister supriya would be perfect idea of enjoying.I was so very excited about it (nothing new) that i couldnt even wait for a day and so i rushed immediately the same day i finished my exams i.e, 18 march 2006.
There in B'lore ,while supriya who is a flash developer had to work all day i could enjoy sitting at home and chatting with my friends.WOW that was so much fun.Besides that I learnt fire works which i loved t do.then i even sang some songs and recorded them so that my father who inspired me to sing, could listen.After receiving my mail with the song attached,he called me up to appreciate and asked me to keep it up and to become a famous singer some day (hope i do).At night when supriya was back home i used to spend time talking to her r watching T.V.We both had so much fun watching so many episodes of F.R.I.E.D.S at midnights.We even watched movies like Iqbal,Monster Inc,Ice age......i know these movies are too late to watch now but i didny find time then.these movies are so cute to watch.i loved them.
When it was a weekend we went out for shopping at Forum or just sit at home to relax our lazy bones and make few lamps with the decrative material tat we collected. They were so awesome when placed in the living room.
what my mother would be happy about my holidayz was that i learned hw to cok rice.:d.many times i rememberd thse dayz before exams and how i stuggled to study:p.i realized that exams are also kinda fun.
This was the first time i was sending Ugadi festival away frm home.But supriya gave me no chance of complaining.she quickly called my mm to ask her the recipee of few traditionally andhra dishes and she was successfull.they were yummy.Great job Sup..
Soon the day approached when i had to leave 'back to hyderabad'. :(....I just gave a big hug to supi and left.Every minute i was just wishing that somehow something happens and i can stay ther for few more dayz.But...f n use...as u can see im already in hyderabad now wriing this blog:(
Got so much to say but my finger are now paining typing all this (i wonder how i manage while chatting):p
So tats it for now....'
Wats next......Next is THE SECOND HELL,......i mean the second year of intermeduate
the results are gonna be declared soon...and cllege will be reopening on 20th:(
WILL BE BACK SOON WITH ANOTHER BLOG......

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Woohoooo I love it!!!!